August 2011 archive
Horseriding lesson is still as frustrating as ever
Went there with steel determination and fire burning in my eyes, all ready to kick the horse to make sure it trots. All of that went out of the window the moment the horse refused to budge after my first kick. And then I proceeded to act like a wimp and flapped my legs frantically while begging it to move. I’m lousy I know.
The instructor advised us to get a short whip orz. Stupid Bob and Rocky all your fault!
Karaoke was fun
Had a moment where we keyed in several old school Jrock Vkei songs. Even though I had no lyrics, Malice Mizer’s Syunikiss was sing-able. But omg no hiragana thingies for their kanji sfjkahkjhsdjkn.
And just oh so randomly, I spotted one of the tenimyu songs This is the Prince of Tennis and just keyed it in HAHA. It was surprisingly, fun. I feel this urge to key in random other songs from tenimyu in future karaoke sessions.
And it’s been a while, but hurray for the revival of Sendai Kamotsu songs in karaoke HAHAHA.
I’m really glad I made myself use the microphone in recent sessions. I realised how much fun it can be belting out songs, or when we’re able to sing together. Even if I can’t read half the lyrics LOL.
I’m still upset that I can’t do a vibrato at all, which is so so so so so crucial to any drama-mama song. My attempts at them are very lame.
I also want to be able to accomplish random rapping parts for some songs. SEAMO why your songs so hard to sing?!
Driving recklessly on the road as always
But I’m getting better at maintaining my composure and winging it if I take the wrong route. I’m getting a Swift! 😀 Green colour! No I’m not going to turn it into a watermelon LOL. But I will love to personalise it here and there! I’m very excited actually. Driving the current car is very difficult for me for many reasons.
I should start looking for GPS navigation systems..
I miss playing games
I really do.
I miss the addiction.
I can’t believe I’m harbouring stupid thoughts about wanting a PC just for gaming.
I refuse to boot Windows into my Mac. I’m someone who cannot deal with viruses at all, so I would like to have at least one computer that will last me for a lifetime. Plus if I could resist the urge to boot Windows so that I can have all the illegal free programs for school purposes, I wouldn’t just cave in because I want to play games.
Too bad I can’t use my father’s PC or laptop. He tinkered with them too much till I can’t use them at all ;;
Just went around looking for cars! I took a Toyota Vios and a Suzuki Swift for a test drive hehe. They are a lot easier to control compared to our current car. I’m leaning towards the Swift (totally went VROOOOOM on the highway LOL), but we shall see how. Even though I’m the one driving the car, the wallet belongs to my mother, so she gets the final say lol.
One of my mother’s brother (and his son) accompanied us to view cars since we know nothing about car buying, and I bet my mother’s antics amused him to no end. To her, buying a car is like buying a new phone. Before we narrowed down to those two cars, she was swayed by the Honda Jazz’s sunroof, the Chevrolet Spark’s LCD screen (and cuteness), and many other car’s random exciting features (like if the seats at the back could be pushed forward flat to reveal a much bigger storage, or if the door opens differently, “OOH AHHHH THIS CAR IS REALLY GOOD!!”)
My requirements for a car is quite simple (and vague). Looks decent, not asking for attention, not too hugeass for me to deal with, easy to drive, Okay. I really didn’t want the Jazz because it felt really long, and the front looked er, “fierce” hahaha. Big deal about the sun roof; I can’t even enjoy it while I’m on the road. Plus I can imagine how distracting it will be when I drive during night time.
Driving the Vios really felt like I was back learning how to drive in the driving center. Simple basic car, really sensitive controls, and the car super light. It was really easy dealing with the car. I wasn’t given much of a chance to test how it would feel if I drive at a much faster speed (like on a highway), but even at a semi-decent speed made me feel like if I were to drive any faster, the car will fly off. That’s the only bad part I guess.
Driving the Swift was really fun. I got a chance to drive on the highway, and it was so stable, I ended up driving at a really high speed and didn’t feel the least bit threatened. Brakes will take a while for me to adjust to, but any brake out there is more sensitive than my current car haha. And it was soooo small, U-turning and parking was a breeze. And, I got parking tips from my uncle and the sales assistants /shot. To hell with the “proper way” of reverse parking, I’m so gonna do the one they taught me. So much easier.
Okay enough about cars. I’ve got another form of “transport” to deal with tomorrow. Horses. Watch out. I’m gonna nudge you to death D< If I ever get Rocky or Bob, before I even get the whip, I'm slapping your sides RAWR.
AND KARAOKE TOMORROW~~~~~~~~~~~~
I do not want to be one of those who act as if they are suffering the most (and thus you need to understand and pardon them for their selfish actions, and have to constantly ~massage~ their stupid ego), and I hope that in my entire life, I’ll never behave like one.
Different people deal with situations differently, but I think it’s normal for people to desire feedback and interaction from others no matter what. I would like people to show signs that I matter to them. A form of acknowledgement to my existence, what I’m proud of, and what matters to me. And if I could, I hope that whatever I do for my friends could make them feel the same sense of contentment whenever I receive such feelings.
I have seen people who ask directly for comments, and I think it’s fine. But when it comes to fishing for compliments and sympathy, it annoys me to no end. And it’s people like these that will make me feel like a hypocrite because I end up having the urge to do some fishing. And then I get very frustrated with myself for even thinking about it ._. I should just solve this all by having these people out of my life.
Now that I let that part out, I feel so much better.
All the air conditioners in the house broke down. The one that’s functioning the best is the one in my dad’s room, but even a fan is much better than that hot-air blowing thing. Just a few hours ago, the repairman for the aircon in my mum’s room came. After he fixed it and left, it gave off this lifesaving cool breeze for a few minutes before it went kaput again :/ I can’t wait for Friday to come where the repairmen for my aircon comes over.
In an attempt to take my mind off the heat (omg I’m dyinggggg I’m turning madddddd), I shall try to
work on the rori meme surf taobao more /shot.
Attended STGCC with Alanna and Ivory yesterday! And met up with Jasmine (get well soon!) and Shu for breakfast and dinner respectively. Couldn’t meet up with a lot of the Sparklies, but it’s okay! There are always other opportunities to meet up.
Perhaps because it’s really not what I’m interested in, but we sort of breezed through the whole thing in less than half an hour. If it was catered more to the Japanese market, and probably dolls and stuff, it might have been a lot more fun for me. This time it seems to focus a lot more on what a lot of people like to label as “Western toys and comics” like Marvel etc., and all the storm troopers and random collectibles. The area for animation and design seemed to have expanded a lot more definitely, which is always fun to look at.
I did look forward to Kishida Mel’s spotlight session 8) I’m very very attracted to his style of drawing and colouring, enough to want an autograph from him. I was hoping that I could catch his autograph session, but I realised that I would totally miss it because it’s held at 11AM-12PM, so there went the only thing I was looking forward to LOL. I didn’t really think I would be interested in a talk session, but surprisingly 1 hour flew by really fast~
And to go off topic, he’s really tall. And he’s got a decently cute face. Not ikemen ikemen, but you know, cute. And though common, I enjoyed his voice and his way of speaking and how honestly frank he was when he said he did so and so because it’s his job (for a commission). And he was an actor~ Sense this mini fangirling moment of mine that has got nothing to do with his art. And he likes Oshimizu Nako the most because of her braids hohohoho.
He has another autograph session on Sunday 4PM-5PM, and I did consider going, but I told myself I shall let “Fate” decide for me. Should I be able to get a copy of Atelier Totori/Rorona’s artbook from Kino, I’ll rush for the autograph session. Alas, I checked the Kino site – no copies left LOL.
After 4 weeks of waiting, we finally got the chance to resume our horse riding lessons.
I know I’ll do very badly during lessons by jumbling up with my hands and basically failing at dealing with the whole saddle, so I was prepared to get skinned by the instructor. I’m glad I mentally prepared myself for it, because if I didn’t, I probably would waste the whole lesson away by giving up. I’m proud of myself for not shriveling up with every blow dealt.
I drove O< My first epic driving adventure was to go to Central at Clarke Quay. Jasmine helped me checked the maps, and it was her virgin map reading experience LOL. We took 2 detours after exiting the expressway because we were on the wrong lane to turn, but whatever, we did it \o/ And parking at the multi-storey carpark was uneventful save for the screaming we did when we had to continuously go up 5 levels of circling.
And to make it even more dangerous, we drove to Admiralty during peak hour. And then back to Khatib. We got lost so many times LOL.
But I can conclude that I don’t want the car. Driving it alone is so.. gloomy.
I’ve talked to my mother about it, and we decided to sell the car for good. Her only priority is that it’s smaller, so I’m left to do the whole choosing car part. And sob, I don’t know how to go about it. I don’t even know what to look out for. Mum mentioned picanto, but that’s cus it’s the only car she knows of. I’ll be needing a lot of help with this.
Today will be the 7th day. We’re gonna huddle up and sleep together LOL.
I’m handling things a lot better than I expected, but at the same time, I’m still very surprised at how I can easily cry over the smallest thought of him. I can be very happy when I want to be because after the cremation, it felt like there was a bigger sense of closure =D (more…)
I think I cried too much till I can’t open my eyes anymore. But I really feel a lot better now. It feels like everything will be okay now =D I actually feel very cheerful now that it’s all over (minus the remaining days for the 49 days thing)
Thank you to everyone who attended the wake <33
Okay ignoring all the last minute annoying affairs, I am glad that I was allowed to carry dad’s picture and remains. I almost didn’t get the chance to, but my mum and I requested even though we both know it’s unlucky for me (who is female, and unmarried) to hold the picture. Thankfully the monks said that since the spouse and child are his most immediate family, we have every right to have the final say.
I’ll get back to you guys soon. It’s so.. busy and hectic. In fact, I lost all sense of time that I can’t seem to feel when I should be having my meals (but I had dinner because Jasmine visited with food lol)
A shoutout to thank those who attended the wake (or is about to)
not that many of them know of this blog. I wish I could have talked to you all more (and behaved better as a host), but argh I didn’t know how I ended up being a one man show dealing with everything when I was not supposed to. We are terribly shorthanded, with my mother having to go out and continue with all the procedures for dad, and I being the only descendent (and a lot of people being annoyed that I’m a female doing a lot of “jobs that should belong to males”)
I don’t want to write down what happened during yesterday, except the fact I am very very happy (ecstatic, really) when Sparklies arrived. It’s like YES. COMPANY. NOT ANNOYING PEOPLE. REST. PEANUTS.
I don’t know what to expect later on, just that it’s “going to be reallllllly tiring”
I’ll talk some other time, ya?
There’s really no time nor mood to grief or think until you get a chance to sleep.
Rushing to deal with the wake, obituary, the whole funeral works, there really isn’t any time left to grief over my dad’s death. I guess that’s a good thing, but it can be really draining. It’s so useful that the hospital gave us this pamphlet, “What to do when your loved one passes away”. I honestly thought it’s one of those don’t grief. Cheer up. If you need help, seek counselor XXXXXXXX. But cool, we got step by step instructions on how we should get dad’s death cert, deal with this and that, and a list of funeral directors and places for cremation etc. etc.
My dad planned it nicely. I don’t need to skip school for all this. After today’s exam, I’ll be on a 2 week break. And I’m sorry to my friend, but I’ll need to postpone the horse riding class. It really sucks because it’s been delayed for 4 weeks already. And I really wanted to resume classes soon.
11 August 2011, my dad passed away at 0220.
I’m sorry, but I’m not planning on saying anything about this to anyone unless needed for the wake (idk what to expect). To those who know of this blog, sorry and thank you for having to deal with 13 days of such entries with me. Since I have not done any sort of announcement about my dad being hospitalised other than that time where I panicked in the ambulance (via twitter), I understand that a lot of people close to me are unaware of what’s happening, but I really don’t see any sort of fitting moment where I can just go “btw my dad just got a major stroke and is not waking up/passed away.” Feel free to inform whoever you see fit to know about this.
This morning my mum received a call telling us to rush over to the hospital because “things don’t look good”.
I have an exam at 10AM.